datariost psycoratioss pinkologiemes.. dx

No more.

2011-10-18T13:08:00.005+08:00

I don't like it when people wants to find out the mistakes in my life.

I absolutely HATE it more when they are trying to figure out what is it that can make them win through my weakness.

Well, I do have weakness, but that's what makes me strong.

If ever I catch you trying to do something despicable, don't expect me to hold back.

Lying have been the core of your main survival, I wonder how long can you keep up with your lies.

Because from what I've learnt, they will come haunting you back.

Truth be told.

I don't mind you stalking me. It's not like I have anything to hide.

The mind of yours is so filthy, worldly and materialistic that no matter how much you think you're doing the right thing, no matter how much you think it will fill your happiness. It will Never, bring you satisfaction.

Trust my words.

Yes, you may be of this world. Accepted by all.

Do you really think it's correct?...

Jealousy? no... I've already bypassed all that.

I just thought you're naive. (:

Cherrie

Ma Mosters! rawr :D

2011-10-16T22:17:00.007+08:00

HAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! I cant believe I have to do this.

Another post for my sakai. Cheam Szen Li.

I'm posting and saying this from the bottom of my heart. (while she's also forcing me :P) Heh.

Sorry about the previous post. Very straight forward of me and offensive and judgemental and saying such mean things to you. Which I've already told you about that post, which I forgot to read. -.-

Nevermind. Lol!

Please, my dear funsize. Accept my very sincere apology and forgive me. I promise I'll be.....em.not so straight forward next time. Oh, how I've hurt your feelings. It's so unbecoming of me. You've treated me with patience and kindness, but I... *drama*

Oh! Forgive me.

(Almost feels like I'm praying..lol)

Okay. To the better part of this post.

Cheam, from the first time I've met you in college, I've always thought you'd be a very good and dear friend. You never fail to cheer me up with your sudden sarcasm. (although I don really know why I'd think it's funny) Even in times when you're at your lowest, you can put on a brave smile, but I could see you. (:

Szen, I somehow think we are connected, in a way. (No I don't want your DNA.yuck :P) I'd suddenly think of how you're doing even at odd times. (Like when I'm shitting. LOLJK!) Also, you're true, sincere and honest to me even when no one else is.

Li, I'd be afriad to lose a friend like you thats why I'd rather keep things to myself. You're there for me, even when you don't know how to comfort me. It's alright. You're the most awesome and amazing person I've ever met! You've thought me things I've never learned, to a whole new world. (Except the socialmedia world, sorry cant get into that. LOL)

Since I'm writing about you. I'll just write about Belle too. LOL!

OKAY BELLE! You're UP! :DD

Belle. bell.. bellll~~~

You are the most kind and understanding person I've ever met. Even when I don't tell you anything, you can see through me, which I can say girl, you're incredible. (:

You can relate to everything I said, even when I feel that I don't make any sense. >.>

You gave me encouragement that helped me through! I am very thankful!

Don't ever stop your cheerful and joyful attitude!

Szen & Belle.

I'm really sorry if I'm too straight forward and have said mean things to you, but know that I'd NEVER, ever talk behind your back. If I've offended you in anyway, please tell me in my face, I'll do the same to you. (but I don't like arguments. >.<) We only known each other for 6months, but I love you both like my sisters. Truly, you guys are the most awesome monsters I've ever met on earth.

AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH

Monsters. LOL!!! :DDD

LOVE ME! (;

Cherrie ♥ ♪

To You (:

2011-10-09T21:38:00.008+08:00

I'm just gonna speak out my mind here.

So, if you're offended then that's just too bad. :)

There's always a reason why I don't tell you stuff.

It's always about other people..

How you will feel if I talk about that. How will you feel if I tell you about that. How uncomfortable Whenever I'm like that. How will you react if I talk about that.

I'm always afraid about how people might feel. This is why I've never speak out, to always hide it, to always change topic so that you will be distracted with something else that wouldn't lead you back to the same topic.

It's also obvious that the word "NOT INTERESTED" is written on your forehead gives out a very strong signal to me, because you're just so not interested.

So, it's a piece of cake for me to distract you.

Another thing is, there're many times when I felt as if we're at a totally different level. When I thought you were mutured enough to think and be calm of certain matters, you just blow it off with some cheap high school attitude. -_______- It didnt pissed me off, it just annoys the hell out of me. Lol. Seriously. I don't really mind that anymore, but it's becoming more and more of a habit. If you don't want that to become something permanent, please listen to me.

I'm not perfect okay. No one is, but when something like this comes up and I know it's not the right thing to do. I'd do my best to tell them.

You said I judged you and you thought I was too tired that's why I talked to you like that. I was teaching you. I was only telling you to stop cursing JUST because something when wrong. I'm protecting your image, even when you're not. Or maybe I should tell you in a different way, so that you could understand?

BTW, protecting image is NOT, you not smoking/you not dressing like a slut/you not sleeping around/etc, it's about your very own character. If people sees the character you have, they would naturally judge you first.

I've been with you long enough to know how you live and your surroundings. I'm very glad that you at least have your own boundaries.

But always be very careful of your tongue, it could build up friendships and it is also a very powerful tool in destroying your dearest ones.

The things I've mentioned may be a blow, or even a hard punch to your guts. Or even worst, stirred up your anger and hatred from within, but this is only my brutal and sincere honesty for you.

I don't care about anything else, the reason why I liked you is because you were honest to me and you're always the first to approach me. (:

It's not that I don't approach people myself, only I do it very slowly. Lol.

Thank you, for the times you've been there for me.

I love you Szen. (; ♥

**PS: If you have any objections/debates, you can.....em. tell me in class. bye. :b

Cherrie ♥

Stares

2011-08-08T17:49:00.002+08:00

First thing that came into my mind.

What the hell is wrong with you, what do you want from me?..

*staress*

I dont wanna play games anymore. Seriously.. >.>

I used to like it, but now..it's making my life miserable.

Since you have your own game to play now, I'm just gonna stand there and watch. :)

Let go of all your anger?..

Hard to believe.

Ugh..! What the hell is wrong with me now? zzz

Hopefully I can bypass all this nonsense and get on with my life.

Pfft.. Peace out.

Cherrie

♥

2011-08-07T14:45:00.004+08:00

It was hard to stop thinking about you at first, but now I've gotten used to it.

Thanks to my babe (: She helped out me a lot.

When I'm really down, she'd ask me how I am doing and we'd go out. I really appreciate her a lot. (:

She said she salute me for being able to pretend and still hang out around you with our friends. Well, it has not been easy, but all it took for me is a simple silent prayer. (:

Every time whenever I see a super hot guy, I tend to think about you. Which, is kinda annoying, because it means that I am still........ v.v

I don't know what you've heard from whoever..about me. I dont care. I dont want to know.

If I were to change, when I change, it won't be because of you or anyone, it'd be for myself.

My bearbear, I named it after you. (: It will be a memory I'll never forget.

Why bear? because of your bear hugs. (':

Cherrie

I ♥ U

...Time Heals...

Restrained

2011-08-02T01:44:00.003+08:00

Alright..

I'm just gonna say this.

I'm not dumb. (:

I've already known.

If you actually care to look back, I've been in your shoes.

Saying the same thing as you.

-_______-

Yes I am upset.

Yes I am angry.

Yes I feel like taking out my anger and frustration.

But I manage to refrain myself. Why?

Aherm.. Low lifers.

Be selfish and keep things to yourself will not do you good, but more harm to the body.

Sickness comes from hatred.

Take Care Of Yourself.

I'm far gone now. (:

Love,

Cherrie

Psalms 28v7

2011-07-24T21:14:00.003+08:00

Psalms 28 v 7

The LORD is my STRENGTH and my SHIELD;

My heart trusts in Him, and I am HELPED;

Therefore my heart EXULTS,

And with my song I shall THANK HIM.

I woke up feeling the pain in me, and I thought to myself that you were my strength in everything but you're not with me anymore.

I curled myself up in my bed, trying to forget all the trace of you in my mind.

But I couldn't. \":

I went to church with my mom.

The usher gave me the bulletin, this verse spoke to me so directly that I was just stunned.

This is the most direct way that God has spoken to me.

Jesus is my strength, He is my comforter.

Thank you Lord for being with me.

Love you Lord. (:

Looking out..

2011-07-23T20:01:00.002+08:00

You and I. Two different dimension. Two different world. Two different person.

I accepted your flaws because I know I'm not perfect myself.

I've always told myself that whatever I do, I will not expect anything in return.

This. Why must I expect so much..?

Why did I expect you to do the same to me..?

I thought you'd be more understanding..

You told me I was a very interesting person..

I thought you, of all people would really take your time and understand..

Guess not.

This is the first time I let myself to cry out.

This is the first time I feel the torturing pain. The longer I endure, the longer I pretend, it's like a needle piercing into my heart deeper and deeper, each day..

Eating me up inside.. I cant stand it!

I want to scream my heart out!

It's about time for me to learn not to let people in.

This way. No one will get hurt.

Cherrie

I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made:

marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

Psalm 139v14

He will make a way for me..

2011-07-23T00:56:00.002+08:00

God will make a way,

Where there seems to be no way,

He works in ways we cannot see,

He will make a way for me,

He will be my guide,

Draw me closer to His side,

With Love and Strength for each new day,

He will make a way,

He will make a way... (:

Cherrie

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2011-07-21T22:39:00.002+08:00

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In

2011-07-19T19:34:00.004+08:00

Pfft.. You cant control how or what a person thinks. =.=

I thought of all people, you would be a little more understanding and be more aware of how I feel. The more you ask me, the more I don't want you to know, because you won't even listen to me.

I told you this before, guess you must've forgotten. I don't blame you, it's not like you have any responsibility towards me, I only feel I cant talk to you. There's no understanding. No encouragement. Nothing. There's no support..

Everyone keep asking me.

"Are you okay?" ..

I cant entirely be OK. I cant be not OK too.

Why?.. because people will start asking me, why this?.. why that?.. Geez. I'm fed up.

I can only say. "Yeah, I'm fine." with a not so OK look.

Basically, I cant live like this. I keep looking at him, first thing in the morning. Him. Whatever I do. Him.

My distraction doesn't work. My ming will always go back to him.

Why is this happening?..

Today, you shouted outside of gallery. I was worried and was really tempted to go out to ask if you're alright. But, I told myself you've got nothing to do with me anymore. I shouldn't care at all right?..

Even if I were to ask you, I don't think you would be happy or thankful for my concern. So why ask.. >.>

Why do I keep having this urge to ask you, to hug you?..

I'm sitting at starbucks. I remembered you sitting beside me. On my right. I somehow cant take my mind of you. Why??.. tell me why...

Can I hug you again?..

Cherrie ♥

BAD DAY! DDD:

2011-05-24T22:24:00.004+08:00

I need a punching bag. >.<

Well..it's been a long day today. Especially when there's nothing to do. I mean, seriously, I stayed at home and just stone in my room, infront of the damn computer man. =.=''

After that, really behtahan.. Drove all the way to JayaOne, BUT damn smart. Never bring along my wallet. .=.= Luckly Shun was there, and he paid for my parking and dinner. =.='''||

The worst part was, I went home FULL, and i totally FORGOT my grandma cooked dinner. =.='' *yeah, another sweat* So, in order to not let my mom scold me even more for eating late. I stuffed a little food in.. THEREFORE, now i'm super duper crazily FULL! =.=|||

Haih... I dam smart right today. Nvm. I feel like a fat ass now. =.=

DAMMIT! ...

Am I?

2011-02-25T17:24:00.006+08:00

I'm suddenly having this feeling that my thinking are getting a little too matured sometimes.

Usually my reaction towards certain things would be to take sides, and dont care about what the other party is feeling. But today, I managed to see both side's feelings and to understand what kind of position they are in..

Could it be, because I've also been through the same situation as these two before?..

Maybe.

My other advise, to think before you speak or do anything. Please?..

Because action without thinking will only lead to disaster.

Best still, is to ask yourself.. What would Jesus do? Under these circumstances..

Him

2011-02-24T23:27:00.008+08:00

I know i know. But the thing is, whenever I say him, it could be this person, or another person, or that person or, the other one. haha. So, at least no one really know who I'm talking about. :p

** All this is for me to know and for you not to find out. C:

I've been trying not to think of him, and I did it! :D

Well, all that I did was occupied myself with lots of stuff and.. Woila! He is no more haunting me in my brain.

How happy and free I feel now. hohoho! At least now I can be thinking about important stuff, like how to deal with a certain ... problems, and also I have to think of ideas, ideas, and more ideas..

I think I should really start reading again, cause reading is probably the best way to keep my own emotions aside so that no one sees what I'm feeling when my head is in that story. Hmmm..

My heart. It stays that way. Don't even think of cracking it open, because you wont even find it...

Damned Day / Dooms Day

2011-02-24T15:58:00.002+08:00

Oh well.. not really a dooms day today.

I merely run out of title to think of putting...

But seriously, If everyday were damned day, how are you gonna survive?..

It's only a damned day if only you made it one, not by what happened around you.

Be the one that changes everything and stop expecting for your surroundings to change for you.

Be different.

Make a stand for yourself. Stop pleasing other people already, care for yourself.

Yes, be a selfless person, but sometimes you need to be a little selfish, ya see?

Many things had happened since the last time I wrote. Which was not very long, but long enough. Lol. Anyway, different people are going through different things and they are trying to find out what are the answers. They are like hunters, in search for their prey. Hunting them down. But there's always a price to pay.

The answers you get may be the ones you have been searching for, it may also not be the answer you long to hear.

For the passed month, there has been a lot of unexpected events and all kinds of emotions are let out. I cant say it's actually a good thing, because it'll only make me wonder whether this will be a meaningful or a miserable year..

.. Sigh. The end is yet to come.. O:

Only the second month of the year, and things are already happening. I really hope that all will be well throughout this year.

Lord Father Almighty, bless my family, protect us with Your power, shield us under Your wings, guide us with Your Holy Spirit. Be with us forevermore. Amen. C:

내가 뭘해야 하죠?

2011-01-18T19:46:00.002+08:00

.. If only because of that, and all that I get is silent treatment. Then, I dont know what to say anymore.

Cherrie

Friendship

2011-01-18T00:55:00.003+08:00

I will not be tempted to speak to anyone else about what happened.

I value a friendship that is good and sincere.

I scold a friend, because I want them to know I'll be there even in times of trouble.

I seek for a friend so that I could share my happy moment to them.

I keeps a friend's secret in a sealed box even though it takes my life.

But..

with the slightest jab, they could hurt you like a stab to the heart.

It takes 10years to build a solid friendship and trust, but it only takes 10sec to lose it.

I'm sorry for what is it that I've done or what is it that I've offended you with. Please accept my apology.

Am sorry.

Cherrie

Fish.

2011-01-18T00:35:00.004+08:00

Assignments. ==''

IT IS FLOATING AROUND MY HEAD!!!

*BLUBBB BLUBBB*

ARGHHHH!!!

FISHYYYY FISHHYYYYYYYY

SIFHH>>FSF+> +wefsRI#W$

UGH!

BLAAFFRERF..

CRAP!

NO DISTRACTIONS!!!

PLSKAYTHXVERYMUCHH!

DDDD:

NOT WORKING. HAIH..

OKAY NOW BACK TO WORK.....

College Journey

2011-01-09T21:29:00.005+08:00

Bleukk.. College is gonna start in like, 2 days?! Ughhh!

I mean, its not like I dint have enough time to play/watch movie/hang out with jey(who is going back to india very very soon)/lie down on my bed and die.. =.=''

But seriously, this time.. College is totally different from the last 2 times it has started.

This time, its more.. Neutral.

*Shrugged* Cause....no idea. The excitement isnt really there for me.

Oh well...

All I know is that no matter what, I must set my own priority right.

I must state clearly what are the things I should do and what are the things that shouldn't be bothered.

I know for a fact, that many things might happen and also many things I do would effect my walk with God, and eventually be a person that is no different from any other human beings.

NIV - John 14v6

Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

With all that I have, I'll resubmit it to the Lord, because there's no such thing as, if you wanna live a life you want, You have to take charge of your own life.

KJV - Exodus 34v14

For thou shalt worship no other god: for the LORD, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God.

Greed is something keeps you away from all God's blessings.

God will support me all the way. (:

Cherrie

Flashback Memories.. (:

2011-01-07T22:24:00.015+08:00

2010

**Refreshing memories....

*refressshh...

*hang*

Oh, dang.. Looks like i'll have to start half way. :PP

July 2010

Jey's Birthday And Martin and Jey's farewell party.. :DDD

At the airport earrrrly in the morning.

After that CC! wahaha!!

Started off college sem2 with a reaaaally huge feasting. :PPP

09102010 Genting trip! :DDD

My eldest cousin sister got married! OhMyGosh!~

♥ Pwweetty pweettyy ♥

College photos!

♥ Great times ♥

10122010 (Morning)

Presentation might be stressful..

But there are always parties and celebration to de-stressed it. :DDDD

10122010 (Night)

My 18th Birthday Party! ♥

Am glad for all those who came :P Love ya all..

AND most important of all..

My lovely white guitar present by my beloved omma! :DDDD

Benben! Muacks! ♥

23122010

Senior's Prom Night

**I was the ex seniors. eheh.. but still it awesome!!!

Luckly, its done by students, or else have to listen to all kinds of talks. pffft. :PPP

26122010 ~ 30122010

YOUTH QUAKEEEEEEEEEE!

♥ Love my roommies! ♥

Chat with them throughout the nights, nonstop!

Weeeee~♥

Calvin, Esther & I :DDD

Last but not least!!!

2010 New Year's Eve Countdown!

Luke, Esther & I :DDDD

This Is All That I Have

..for now ;)

With loads and loads of luurrveeee...

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Cherrie Yap

Music ♫

2010-12-20T20:07:00.004+08:00

The right tune. The right voice. The right note.

That is all I need, to heal.

To look for my purpose again.

♫

Cherrie

You (:

2010-12-19T20:02:00.002+08:00

Yes, I'm definitely thinking about you.

The thing is, I fell to my bed, falling asleep, dreaming about you. Only you.

I have no idea why but its been going on for a few days now.

All I know now is that. I don't have you. I won't have you. I can't have you.

Now that you're 2hours away, its felt like you're half a universe away. Suddenly, my old feelings are back. Something triggered it, I don't know what.

Every time I look at you. I'm afraid you would see through me.

I feel sad when you said you're not gonna be here or you're leaving to somewhere else, because it means that I couldn't see you anymore.

I feel stupid even thinking about these. The world is so corrupted that even if there's a chance, I can't be with you.

If it were a different planet, a different type of country, a different sets of rules.

It would have been a whole lot easier.

♥

Cherrie

Another heart felt story..

2010-12-12T23:10:00.004+08:00

Mesmerized by these three beautiful little stars aline with each other. If only it could send a message to you.

From me.

I'm cant help myself thinking of what will it be like to be with you. You would probably say that because I've spend quite a number of times being with you, and from there I've grown to like you. I couldn't help liking you. I couldn't get the courage to love yet, but liking you has already taken away half of my life.

Well, my words are meant to be sealed. The person is forever to be concealed.

For the dragon that protects the princess, must fight till the end of eternity, longing for an equal combat that could bypass all weaknesses, to be truthful and faithful to the one.

Cherrie

..rewind

2010-09-25T02:46:00.002+08:00

You once told me, that you dreamed about me going off with another guy, holding his hands, our back towards you.

You told me, because you were scared I would go off with another guy when Im with you..

There's also another tale, where you told me and promised me, you would stop smoking for my sake and I trusted you. But you lied to me over and over again.

Giving lots of excuses just because Im an innocent.

We went swimming, and you said before swimming you have to smoke at least once, or else you would suffocate, I trusted you and you took it for granted. You betrayed my trust and you thought our relationship weren't having any problems?

For that, I thank you. You've showed me many things I've never wanted to know.

False hopes

2010-09-20T15:50:00.002+08:00

Today is your birthday.

I see your pictures and wishes from other people. It makes me wonder, does he lie to all of them too?

You're a big fat liar, cheater, and have a very huge mouth for trash talking. You're also a spoiled brat that thinks life is just a game, your lives evolves around liars and people u mix with are also the same as you.

You said your exes before me cheated on you. Well, I guess you have learned all those lying from them too huh? Or is it just another lie you've made up just to cover up your trails??

You're a bastard that does not deserve ANYTHING! Anything at all!

My tears are dry,

Crying hurts my eyes,

But never again will I cry,

For someone who was never mine.

Cherrie

Amateur Act

2010-06-24T01:26:00.004+08:00

You cant continue on with this.. I do understand that everyone of us has secrets and i respect your privacy, but with you pulling people aside to talk about it in front of everyone is just plain rude.

Let me rephrase this for a moment.

I'm just trying to tell you what other people would ACTUALLY feel, when you do that Every Single Time.

People might think, they usually tend to think that you are talking about them. Who doesn't? We're all human beings. We have very unusual sixth sense, that could detect true or false informations.

I'm not getting angry here but more like, annoyed.

Lets see, oh sure, you have very juicy secrets and u couldn't wait to tell this person so freaking badly. But cant it wait, like, till when you're alone with that person?.. Cause its pretty rude and annoying, especially when you keep pulling that particular person away from a group conversation or even a one-on-one conversation, JUST so you can talk about your bloody secrets. wth?..

Why am I the only one complaining? I have no idea.

Are you trying to be the another him?.. Wanting everything to yourself. Hmm.. maybe you are.

I'm not saying that you have to tell us about your little secrets too. I'm telling you to stop doing that. You wanna tell people about some secret, tell it whenever you have the chance to. Not force it. It'll only made you look desperate. For what? Attention? Oh, get a life!

There are times when you look at a person, it felt like, you dont wanna look at them. You simply put on a bloody fake smile, thinking they wont notice. Oh please, I Noticed.

Being here is like living in a gossip city. Little advise ay, keep all secrets to yourself. I know i do, from now on.

♪ Cherrie

Away From ME!

2010-05-25T20:35:00.002+08:00

Dramas! Go away! I HATE U!

Seriously, I'm sooooooo tired with all of it already. I'm caught up with all these dramas, i lost count of it and wanting so badly to leave it to ROT at someplace.. Far far away from me.

Gad! Sometimes, I feel like crying my heart out.. But everytime I've tried, it just wouldn't let out. Argh! Why are all these things happening, when its not suppose to happen?!! I feel like lying on my bed and fall into a deep peaceful sleep and never ever wake up again..

There're times where it's my fault and I'm sorry for that.. But some other time, when I'm not involve in it, I was somehow pulled into that situation.. Which was totally ridiculous! ugh!!!

I am feeling angry, upset, guilty, impatient, stress, ETC!

And all I could do now is.. Stare into space as if I dont feel a thing...

*sigh*

Mother's Day

2010-05-09T13:22:00.003+08:00

How much I'm envious of you all.. The love that is coming from your mother's. Her comforting presence fills the place.. The joyous environment where you can relax and enjoy being with one another..

Its a rainy day.

Clouds gather above my head. It's dark and windy. The air blows into my face, my tears couldn't help but pours out like an overflowing cup, filled with water.. The rain, soaks my blouse and sticked to my back.

I walk.. Without a direction.

Into a deep ally, where no one finds me.

Hugging myself, hoping to feel the warmth that is the same as a mother's love..

As I walk.. I heard voices of different families. Malay, Indian, Chinese, all celebrating Mother's Day in their respective homes. Listening to their laughter and happy conversations with each other..

The feeling of "Ah.. This is where I belong."

Isn't this what we're suppose to have? To feel?

I continued walking.. My heart, filled with brokenness..

The thought of, "Why cant she just abort me when I was still in her womb? It could've save lots of trouble.", came to me..

Oh, how many times have I thought of that..

All that I could do, is not to repeat what was done before.

To remember how it felt like to be left, unloved..

And not redo the past but look ahead to a brighter future..

The rain stopped. The clouds opened up.. The sun is shining down on me...

I looked up, and stopped at where I was..

I saw Hope, and I know I'm not alone..

My life will never be the same again..

- Cherrie Yap

Life

2010-04-29T09:46:00.006+08:00

In this world there're so many problems and misunderstanding. When someone hurt you or even do things you dislike, it's best for You to tell them what their problems are in private, but not talk bad about them to other people, even though they did the same to you.

It helps soften your anger and also it helps to make the person who offended you Think.

Okay, what if the person doesn't accept what you've said? Still, it doesn't give you the rights to pour acid upon their names.

Think about it..

It may be easy to spit out other people's wrong doing and leave yourself with no rest, but it would be even easier to talk to them and solve the problems once and for all.

I'm not saying I'm perfect here, but there're certain things i wish i could too, to understand.

And sometimes, by knowing something and asking/searching for it, doesn't mean that you're stupid or plain dumb.. It simply means that you have great curiosity that drives you to do/ask things you don't know about.

Many people will think that people older then them knows how to deal with many situation, but let me tell ya one thing.

You may be older, but you may not be wiser. (:

No offense. There're many people like that out there. They look fun and carefree, or maybe they'd even look like a person you should look up to, but deep down, they have a mind like a child. They too, are seeking for an answer.

There's more to Life then just a little problem where talking and understanding one another can solve it.

People would probably start talking after this posting. But think about it.. Try being in other people's shoe for a day. Try thinking about how other people feel and see if you'd understand. Try to feel how its like to be immature throughout your whole life and not knowing the feeling of success, freedom and peace.. (:

- Cherrie Yap

Penang trip

2010-02-04T10:53:00.004+08:00

From the beginning till the end. It wasn't a pleasant one.

The first day we arrived at penang, the whole penang island had a power failure.

The next day, my dad's friend's car (he borrowed us for the trip) got knock from the front(morning) and back(night). The night accident was the worst, but luckily none of us got hurt.

Unfortunately, the last day something happened to me. I vomited in front of our hotel, had to lau sai(shit) almost every hour, stomach pain like hell.. Aduh..! My mom even thought I was just acting, but when I puke, then only she believed. -.-''

And now I'm still sick. *sigh*

Nobody cares anyway.....

I love you. I still do.. Hope you do too...

♥

All over again..

2010-01-19T19:05:00.006+08:00

Have you ever be with someone and also being ignored totally?
Well, i have. Multiple times too..
People use you for their agendas, and throw you away like you weren't important at all.
I have feelings also you know. Everyone have feelings, because we are humans.

I cry myself to sleep everynight thinking about you..
And the future..
Bits and pieces of my heart are falling apart but I don't know why.

I don't know how are you now. Its like I dont know you anymore, or do I still?
Will you still be with me 10years later?
Will you ask me to be yours?

I wish..
I wish we will..
I wish we will still be together..
Forever & Always.

♥ I Love You, Always have Always will..

My prayer.

2009-12-21T16:04:00.006+08:00

There is no turning back.

What's done its done.

Therefore, let me face it.

Lord, help me face it.

Tell me what to do next, tell me your plans Father.

Wherever I go, please be there for me, oh Lord.

Help me to forgive.

Help me to grab hold of everything that is important to me.

Help me to listen.

Help me.

Give me hope again, Lord.

21/12/2009

2009-10-14T21:36:00.002+08:00

Avalanche by Marie Digby

Nice song. Must hear! :D

♥

LOL!

2009-10-11T18:34:00.006+08:00

Ok ok ok.. I'm sooooooooo gonna do this.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

*Deep Breath*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Okay done.

This is called "The laughing BooM"

♥

God of wonders.

2009-10-06T20:39:00.005+08:00

In the beginning, there is GOD. Then, the word made everything on earth, trees, flowers, water, plants, animals*not to mention some really cute ones*, air, sky, cloud, sun, moon, stars, Mars, Pluto, Mercury, Venus, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune*wait, did i just mention the whole galaxy?lol*. So basically, He created everything.

Oh! what 'bout us? Humans?

oh yeah, He created us too. But we are different. God uses His own hands to shape and mould Each and Everyone of us, with different features*too bad for twins.haha* and personality, He has placed us in this little planet called Earth. The amazing part was, He breath live into our soul and body, that makes us alive, what he had breath in us is our spirit.

Pretty cool uh?

Yeah.

So, don't give up just yet. Think 'bout how you should repay him.

Its obvious that He can say something like...

"Man", then there is man.

Later on, "Women", then there is women.

"Put them together", then they are together.

Pretty lame uh?

God love us dearly, and we should love Him back. Treasure ourself for Him.

I love you Father. :)

♥

Book? :P

2009-10-05T16:49:00.008+08:00

BOOKs!!!

Its getting onto my nerves again!!!

I'm going to lock myself in the room and readdddddddddddddddddddddddd. :D

No one's gonna think about disturbing me or i'll slice their throat off. Mahahha..

Hmm.. how nice to stay at home and read.

Te-he.

♥

Looking ahead :D

2009-10-02T16:59:00.006+08:00

I'm not really progressive this few weeks.

Its like nothing is really going on. Really.

Lol.

But this made me think, of my future.

We just sent our dear friend of to London last month.

And everything sort of fall into place.

I started to think of what am I gonna do in my future.

Hopefully I'll become a singer/actress (God PLEASE let me be).

Or just get my master in performing arts and wait for God to show me what to do next.

Well, my life is just a simple one, but my dreams are much greater then anything else.

Someday, my life will be as glamor as it is. We'll see.

In the end, I'll praise God with it. This is my word, and I'll mean it forever.

My friends may have forsaken me now, but they will regret for not accepting me as I am. When it happens, when they come and plead for me to accept them, I might just pass by saying "God bless you for who you are and what your intentions are. Good day."

Imma gonna gette hell outta here when time comes.

(: Don't miss me, I know I wont.

♫«ÇЋεѓЃιэ»♫

2009-09-26T23:10:00.001+08:00

Raya Holidays Are Coming To An End.

Time To Be Serious Again!!!

Spm

SPm

SPM

rawr!!!

Feeling sad & Hyper now..

2009-09-25T12:40:00.003+08:00

Todays is the day Esther Wee(ex-Youth President) is leaving to Reading, UK. This makes all of us feel reaally reaally SAD!!! :(

I cant see her off coz my parents cant send me to the airport. *Makes me sad-der* T.T

Esther, hope you'll enjoy life there and remember to bring back souvenirs for us!!! hehe.

Recently, I was in touch with a few of my ol' friends. We hang out, play together, scold each other, kick each other, get drunk together-gether - wait! no, we didn't get drunk!!! LOL

After awhile, I started to wonder about my ol' olllldd friends, meaning my childhood friends. What i've known is that, they've all moved on and doing their own things, getting credits for what they've achieved.

Well, i don't deny its actually really good. But I've just miss those days we've been together, just enjoying one another's presence.

I've missed all of you. Please do get in touch with me if you've lost connection with me or my brother.

People I wanna get in touch with, *WANTED*

Lydia Yap

Stephanie Yap

Shawn Lee

Ng Wai Chi (my primary school friend)

From Gen-X

Cynthia

Bee Wan

Chee Sam

Chee Hui

Weng Chee

Joshua Tan

Many more!!! Just try and get to me please. <3

Missing ME!?!?!?!?

2009-06-27T18:23:00.002+08:00

Ok.. here a suBer quick one.. gotta go for a potbless party later.

so, i've not been to school for nearly..

em..3days now..

yeah.. cause i'm 'sick'

its not like H1N1 or anything.. just virus..

its pretty scary at first when i found out that i had a super headache, so i asked my mom whether if i dont need to go to tuition. Oh Thank GOD she said its Ok now to go tuition.. what a relieve.. but i actually ended up going on9. *that doesn't even sound like i'm sick right..laughs.*

then the next day i found out my face is not "functioning well" so that the first day i never go to school.. my mom say she will bring to the hospital but she kept on postponing it till like 2days ago.. *btw, we went to a clinic*

sigh.. then blablabla.. found out its not anything serious or Permenant, Phew!! what a relieve. cause if my face is half dead how am i suppose to be an actress in my future.. *giggles.* yeah thats my dream btw.. so the next day went to assunta. I didt even know what happen, suddenly i ended up spending most of my Precious time in that Bored-to-death hospital to wait for my brain n neck scan..

Hours and hours and hours ltr...... result came out... no problem... go home!!! but i can only go home about 10pm.. sigh again..... so yeah.. thats about it for those of you who think i've gone missing for soooooooooooo long... might be back to school in a few.. (=

There you go.. Oh yeah!!! Did i mention that the Doc is handsome?! ahaha... lucky me, nice doc, Hot! will be seeing him in a couple of weeks time. (x

"End"

*at least i gave some colour there..xD*

The Day 17 June 2009

2009-06-19T15:57:00.009+08:00

We are all on our journey to Gold Course Hotel.....

It was an interesting journey and also very boring day, thats why there will be tons of pictures.

Pictures right below..

Enjoy. (=

*not much thing to say, let the photos tell the story..*

What are you doing?!

See everyone's looking at you.. haih..

The bus garbage bag. Lol =.=

Uncle!!!

I absolutely no idea what are they doing.. =.=

That candilier is really nice. (x

Our tour guide of the day!!~

Saw a very cute puppy~

Wei, were are you looking?!

The abandant Bar... *Beware*

*Took from inside the building*

Those silly people looked familiar..

Why are they so silly sitting outside under the suBer hot sun instate of sitting inside like us?...

Weird..people...

*haha*

*Going Back...*

*Reach school...*

Sleeeeeeeeeeeepppp....

Z...z...z......

Sleep also wanna pose =.=

*Surprise from the others*

And look who's the audience...

~.~"

So, thats what happened on that day... *haha*

~.~

By, cherrieyapsookhuah

Family Camp!!!

2009-06-07T23:01:00.011+08:00

Baru came back from Family Camp in Melaka.

It was so much fun!!! Bettar then hanging out with my friends in the mall.

(No offense mike!!)

The most exciting thing is the swimming pool CAPTAIN BALL!!! Man, we really have Lots of great fun. We, youths & some adults played. I'm in group.....(Gosh! I cant believe I forgotten my group number.), well anyway, my group WON!!! Uncle John, my bro(dude.), Jeyshaan(hairy man. LOL. oops.), Grace, her mom(lenglui), and others........ Anyway, My group WON!!! Oh.. Haven't I said that already??? Hmm.. Oh well.........

Oh yeah!!!!

ahha.. we won the other team by 9-8, cool uh? xD Wah, bangga bangga...

The game was pretty tiring, but FUN!!! And the strangest things that I've realize is that..... NONE of us got sunburn!!! LOL, Praise the Lord!!! Hallelujah!!!~

We learned many things.

BGR-Building Godly Relationship

Friendship

.....

Yeah.. Thats what we've learned in the pass 3days.

I'm sure we can apply these teachings in our daily lives.

Very BIG THANK YOU to the preachers,

you've thought and remind us about many things that we've forgotten and are not aware of.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!

So i shall put up some Pictures to entertain all of us~

Now, sit back, enjoy and Scroll down your mouse...........................................

Bee nests... **This bees wont sting. Lucky me~ I've gotten a real up-close capture. Nice!!

This is the so called "entrance" for this kind of bee.

Unique tree

Three wheeled cycle

Imitating the statue... LOL

My bro & I

Right below the St. Paul's Hill (=

Blak!!! CANON BALL!!!

Its Gonna BLOW!!!

The Weirdest Tree.

Angel, Daphne & me!!!

My bro with the Kids.. Do you know which is him??

Da YouthS!!!

Thats all for now!!! *yawn* - I've better go to bed now. x)

Enjoy all of ya holidays Kay!!!

My Holidays~

2009-05-29T19:25:00.005+08:00

Hell passed by...

Numbers float by...

Teachers went by...

...

Hey, wait a minute.

HOLIDAYS' COMING BY!!!~ AGAIN!!!!!

Hurray, Holidays~

Ok. So, basically its holiday once again. I'm sooooooooooo gonna get everything done!! I've got my additional mathematics Project to finish *sigh*, watch all the movies on air *jumpy*, go out with my bunch of crazy friends *giggles*, PARTY ALL NIGHT!!! *wohoo!!*, Get super DRUNK at my friend's house till i puke on someone's shirt..blablabla..

Sounds like fun?? Blah of course its FUN!!!

Now lets get the party STarted!!!~

Now now,

Those who don't know fun must be miserable.

I feel sad for them.

Wait!!

...

Yeah right!!!

Like I fucking care those dumbarse losers.

HAH!!!

In your face suckerS~

So, shall we all?..

*wink*

By, Cherrie Yao

Whats the point?!?

2009-05-25T15:55:00.008+08:00

Shit-hell.

haha. I really have to laugh at myself for being so stupid.

- Nobody cares about me. Seriously, save it everyone don't try to comfort me. hah

- My friends think I'm just another freak that will embarrass them in front of everyone JUST because I don't do what they are doing (WTF).

- Never really have a best friend (not even 1, sad uh?). Except cheaters who pretended to be my 'friend'

Ok. Here's to our future. (especially to friends from my secondary school)

- I will never remember you AFTER I leave this hideous school, unless you always keep in touch with me OR if you go to the same collage/university as me.

- Ask me out, i'll surely reply you. Its just the matter of whether I'm free on that day.

- This is the last school hell year, so you can do whatever you want to me. Pinch me, whack me up, screw me, scold me, hate me, spit at me, punch me, throw book at me, kick me, gossip about me, bet on me, look at me disgusted, treat me like hell, your name it. (I bet there's more, though.)

- My life is mine, NOT yours. So you better stay the FUCK out of it, or I will make yours hell. Keep your own nose to yourself, don't go round sticking your nose into other people business.

- School days are school days. After I pass that, I will never EVER regret leaving school.

Everything will become memories, and i'll forget all of it, bit-by-bit.

Until the end, I will certainly not remember anything.

It will be like having amnesia.

I don't need to worry anymore.

Isn't life a bitch?

Everything you do, no matter right or wrong,

your will always be judged.

God forgive everyone for not knowing You.

Thank you, Lo

By Cherrie Yap Sook Huah. (=

Have a nice day.

Crazy!!!

2009-05-21T17:16:00.004+08:00

Crazy!!!
I'm seriously goingCRAZY!!!
Ok.. U see, I'm currently, & i mean now, I'm listening to the recording from my Tuition, Erican, so that i can momerise EVERY SINGLE WORD of it...

The title?
If eric CAN, so can YOU@!!!!!

Ew.. sick.
*Hey there, can i vomit on you?

Hmmm... Actually its not that bad though..
At least, its something I like.

Gotta remember EVERYTHING,
so that I will pass my oral test...
Pass! Pass!! Pass!!!~

Okay.
Anyway, does anyone knows, there are lots of Idiots out there???

Well, ya know what?
-Those who dislike my statement, they are probably cursing by now..
But others, i don't know~

FergeFergeFergelisious...
Oh man, my random-ness is coming IN~

LaDi Yadi Lada.....................

By, Cherrie Yap.

15th May 2009 - What a day~

2009-05-16T22:26:00.006+08:00

That day was SUPPOSE to be a reaaaaaaaaaaaaaally boring day. But thanks to ji xiong, i brought my guitar to school & my camera(for fun). My class & i took 1paper only, the one and only PJK test. What a miserable test. *Sigh*

Anyway, even though we've only got 1 test, but we've sure did earn back some fun moments of our lifes. x)
Brandon, Ti Hau and I played my guitar. At least there are some entertainment for us. And of course, Myself, Jass, Christina and Elfy took Tons of pictures, No, correction. What i meant was, Million and one pictures!!!

Ok. HEre we go~

His must have a nice Butt.. *laughs*

Me, with my own guitar... (x

Brandon, with my guitar...

Crazy Fela.

Funny~

Ti Hau, with my guitar.. (wow, my guitar so famous xp)

Christina and I

FreakO...

Actually I dont really know what is this all about. Haha..

Heart~~~

Okay~ Done!!! CYA all next week. Hopefully we'll get more pictures~
smiles (=

By, Cherrie Yap.

Dont mistaken this.

2009-04-30T14:23:00.001+08:00

Wai Ling is not mine. She is just a friend. How could u get an idea of me talking about her? Me hating U, is soooooooooooooooo not what u think it is. Right now, To me, u r not a trustworthy anymore. I cant trust U anymore. U know what, i cant trust any1 anymore. All thanks to u. My feeling of trusting someone has totally disappear out of sight & out of my heart. I'm not blaming u. Really i don't, I'm not saying that u r the cause of everything. But i really Thank You for doing this.

(2nd to the people that hates me.)
Its Okay that u all keep daring each other to scold me. Well, i really appreciate that, cause it made me realize that i'm a gal that all of u hate soo damn shit fucking much. Even though u all threaten me, i'll never change. U threaten me to stop doing anything, I wont. U can say i'm a bitch or whatever, i wont deny it. This is my blog & whatever I write IN here is none of anyone's business. Stop sticking your nose to other people's life.

-Scold me, Threaten me, Call me names, Ignore me, Hit me, Kill me, Do whatever u want to me.....
I don't care...
I'll Always Be The Same...

The more u do it, the more i'll bitch about it.

-I've been through it before & I'm not afraid of going through it again..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Don't know how I feel,
Cause you don't deserve to know.

Want to know how I feel,
Will cause great pain & hurt.

Clock ticks,
Time stops.

Wounds & Scars heal,
Pain in heart never cures.

When will this be the end?
It will never end...
Never..
End.

Written By,
Cherrie Yap Sook Huah.

GangUp huh?

2009-04-30T13:43:00.000+08:00

Ok. Here we go.
Threaten me? wanna know what my reaction will be? i'll tell u all.
-Wuu!! i'm soooooooooooo scared~~~ i wont do it again(bullshit). I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry, i reaaaally mean it u see. I didt mean to talk about ah. tiap. Will u do me the honour of forgiving my "wrong" doings? Whoops, i'm sry its too deep for u to understand. What i mean is, will u forgive me for talking about u that is not true??...
Oh!!~ & the others, u're excused.

Signed By,
Cherrie

The day gone worst...

2009-04-13T14:50:00.000+08:00

*sigh*
*sigh*
*sigh*
Tears flow down & roll down from my eye, to my cheek, to below my chin, disappear out of sight.
Don't know why I'm crying for. Is it all my fault? People somehow hated me for no reason. No reason at all. I don't wanna care what other people is thinking about me. Cant u all just stay fucking away from my life??? Why must you all gossip about other people? Is it really fun? Huh?? ya think so?! **k *u** *i**g, u Son of bitch. Whoops, i mean Bitch, can u stop pretending in front of other people? Stop trying to "fit in" with people that you think is "Popular", 'cause frankly you cant do it. You think that Everyone like you, think you are the smartest, think you are soooooooooo fucking drop-dead gorgeous, you could blow that all away gal. Those are sooooooooooo not true. Smiley face in front, Bitchy bitch at the back. Wtf?!!? You wanna bitch uh? Sure, come on. You are trying to make my life miserable, trying to STEAL my friends, trying to get fuck by Ah Thiap or whoever, trying to act as if you are the innocent One, thinking that as long as you keep doing things which will GET you into the "group", YOU ARE SO FUCKING NAIVE!!!!!
Why does everyone hate me? I don't know what to do. I've always been the Bad person in everyone's eye. Nobody cares about me, nobody know what's going on in me, but God. I've never, never ever been remembered by anyone. Never. Not a single one. I'm not valued by anyone.
*Big sobs escapes from my mouth*
----- Nobody cares about that anyway...

*sigh*

My plan? -
No point sharing it.

Cherrie..

Happy Birthday Wai Ling!!~

2009-03-24T17:57:00.001+08:00

Today in school we celebrated Wai Ling's birthday. Well, its sort of another surprise despise the one in her own hse. hah!!!

Surprise Surprise Surprise!!!~

Time to cut your little cakey~ ^^

We actually done it when teacher is not around. haha!!! we such noty people. xP
~there was too class photo shoot, so after cutting the cake v rush to AnjungD to get our photo taken, duh!~ we r so popular. hahah.. We had lots of fun *kinda* & many of our teacher nvr teach. Wow!! We r sooooooooooo spoiled!!! Aiks. xP

Here's a poem for u~
You are friendly, kind and caring
Sensitive, loyal and understanding
Humorous, fun, secure and true
Always there... yes that's you.

Special, accepting, exciting and wise
Truthful and helpful, with honest blue eyes
Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright
Yes that's you... not one bit of spite.

You're one of a kind, different from others
Generous, charming, but not one that smothers
Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game
But not just another... in the long chain.

Appreciative, warm and precious like gold
Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old
You'll always be there, I know that is true
I'll always be here... always for you.

- Written and owned by Angela Lee Hillsley -

Love, Cherrie Yap Sook Huah. (=

For an unbreakable sight.

2009-03-21T06:36:00.000+08:00

~
Towards the end,
The world may fall,
But love of eternity reminds.
~
Harden heart rebels,
Souls tremble,
But always forgiven.
~
Far away,
Hard to reach,
Always saved in the end.
~
Milk and Honey,
Scared to Death,
But Peace at last straw.
~
Unknown mind,
Unknown sight,
Rebuke to hell they're sent.
~
This is by Him or this is by me,
I don't know a thing,
Please have a way of thinking.
~
Cherrie.

FiLi-FaLa

2009-01-08T18:15:00.000+08:00

School started about . . few days ago ~.~" Pretty sad though, coz my fren, Kay Yeang is in 5SP1, then Wai Ling, Huei Yiing & I in class 5SP2. My class now, not like last year, and much more quiet then usual. Well, our Class monitor is . . . . . Har Wai Ling !!! & of course Arvindran as the assintant monitor.
Anyway, many of my classmates last year keep coming to our class saying "Yerrrrrrr, not fair i wan come back SP2, much more fun ler. SP1 every1 oso sit in groups wan. there Too boring lah." But then, they complained, & a few of them actually asked teacher whether can they change back to SP2, & obviously teacher said "No."
*sigh* I really miss my old classmates & our time together. =)
BiLi-BaLa.
dont know what to say. ok just nothing lah. byebye, Love, Cherrie. ^.^

YLDP 2008 =D

2008-12-14T19:58:00.000+08:00

WAD LA ??? FINE LO !! I UPDATE OK ???

-.- anyways, ylpd was fun, enjoyable, great, n many many friends !!

hmm.. and many cute guys too.. Oooops... sorrY God~

hahs.. MY TEAM IS BERLY !!! and we roX~ anyways, we are such a crazy gang that we always go crazy 2gether(not including ahem&hem. only we knows. hahs.) in the river.. oh ya btw did u all actually know that i almost puke of having the same breakfast as MEE everyday.. and the last 3days of the camp i never eat any breakfast at all !! Puii !! Yuckky !!

I got sick the 3rd day of the camp, i got fever till the final and last night.. FUN NIGHT !!! LAWRENCE !! IM GONNA TAKE MY REVENGE ON YOU !!! SO BETTER WATCH OUT !! WAHAHAHAAAAaaaaaaa !!

anyways, overall was real fun stuff.. few crushes.. aHem... it was fine.. haha..

i've learned many many things.. WOW RED FLAG !! -.-

TV CAN KILL !!! OMG~

that is just sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo damn scary.. *shiver*

haha.. anyways, my birthday was on YLDP.. it was an amazing day.. I just cant believe it went by so slowly, letting me remember what that day will be like.. This would be the best birthday i've ever have.. Not about cakes and candles, but about team work and having great time and fun with each other..

well, i think thats about it that i'm going to write, okay now.. don't complain anymore of me not updating !! *humph*

So love u all, muacks muacks muacks~

Anyways, thanks Charles for listening and understanding.. *big big hugs for you* =D

Cya all next YEAR !!! Love, Cherrie.. *wink*

Elections Elections Elections...

2008-03-06T23:37:00.000+08:00

well, talking bout elections, our country is having 1..
n i reli reli absolutely hated politics.. argh !!
i cant believe it.. if pas wont, i wonder wat will i b doin..
well, if dey win, i'm sure tat most of the malaysians will migrate 2 another country even b4 those western country started 2 boom us.. or worst..
... completely annoying thing is tat every1 in skul, is talking bout de election thing n it cant actually get out of our mind..

well, i do love my country, n i love the place tat i'm staying nw..
bt everything tat had happen n everything tat is goin 2 happen is all planned by God, our creator of Heaven n Earth..

anyways.. i'm jz telling every1 hu r voting rmb 2 vote wisely.. or else, v all will nt hav a four yrs ahead or worst...!!

To me, i prefer DAP, even though dey giv most of the rights 2 malays, bt v mus owis rmb tat v r nt the i hu is goin 2 suggest wat other ppl shuld do.. Onli God Himself cn ask dem wat 2 do..

V r onli born once on earth 2 b serving God in our flesh boby, n 2 face wateva obsticals tat r ahead of us.. V mus owis treasure every moment v hav on earth.. if ther is chance 2 share Gospel 2 others, go ahead n share without feeling ashamed.. bcause v r doin tis for God, nt for our own good..

~~ till nw.. tata..
cherrie... God Bless..

wat a total jurk..

2008-02-04T16:34:00.000+08:00

i'm reli being a coward n also a jurk..
i cant believe i'm telling myself tat all my experience r anof for ME !!
i cant believe wat foolishness i've been, its like a tonado come n go bt i nvr even realised it..
Bt its nt too late 2 start again..
i'll always b humble in God's name n will nt always get pissed off so easily..

For those whom i've hurt, i'm truly sorry..
i'll always try my best 2 control myself..

-- wateva i learn is nt anof, i nid more more MORE !!
i must always improve every single thing in MY LIFE..
its important 2 me, it always is..
Help me Lord, For U r my Saviour..

☺♫- Cħ3rrį3 -♫☻

~God bless always~

ROAD RUNN !!!

2008-02-02T12:31:00.002+08:00

1..
2...
3....

BANG !!

run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run.. run..

yay~ won !!
haha..
anyway, SMK Seksyen4 Bandar Kinrara, road run 2day, n many ppl won n also Yellow n Red house WON !!! wohoo !!
tis yr's road run turn out 2 b much more ppl then v think it will b..
form1S n form2S r the most.. those small chicksS..
N guess wat ? many chicks won !! wow, amazing.. haha..

even teachers also came n join us, n of course Yellow won again.. Pn. Chong, Great Job ther..
as for me, i'm jz ther for fun n obviously i nvr get any points..
bt i had a great n tiring day, including the headace day.. -.-

oh well, jz giv all yr best 2 what u'r doin n things will surely turn out rite..
God Bless Everyone !!
~wif lov, Cherrie.. =]

2008-02-02T12:31:00.001+08:00

i'm here..

2007-12-11T18:41:00.000+08:00

hold me tight or i'll go..
i nvr kno unless u say it out loud..
wen i leave, the connection will end in spilt second..
it might b redish, bt i reli works..
bt whenever u missed the bus, its hard 2 get it back..
bt if the connection keep failing, u'll hav 2 find another 1..

i'm here..
always n 4ever..
bt if i'm left n an empty room..
i'll go, far far away, wer no 1 will ever find me..

so..
i'm here..

always..

cherrie~

stays here alway n 4ever..

muacks 2 every1..

YLDP camp~

2007-12-09T20:54:00.000+08:00

it was reli fantistic.. well, i learn many things bt i didt get any sort of vision thingi jz like daphne, sarah, addison n pastorpher.. so sad rite.. haiz.. bt nvm, i believe soon enough i'll get sumthing far more better den i've ever think of..

btW, the camp was a total emo-cratic, wonderful, n a bit terrified..
i made MANY FRENS, well, as owis..
ahaha.. anyway, ther are many things goin on in tat camp..
our speciel speaker -- Pastor Daniel
he has showed us many things tat v hav not experience b4..
i reli loved 2 see him again.. n i'm sure i'll cause my frens go 2 his church..
haha..

thing tat terrified me is tat, a de las night n the las day.. many ppl keep asking me for my email n hp number... it was like.. hmm.. wierd~
haha..
n tis 1 guy, Nicholas, he was de mostly annoying, non-stop talking person tat i've ever met in my whole life.. he's same team building group wif me, n he keep asking for my email n stuff, frm the las night till the nex morning.. oh my gosh, tats nt annoying bt he jz keep on asking.. the las day, wen i was walking in between the tables,(i didt notice his file was on 1side of the table) he appeared infront of me n ask me 2 stop wer i was, bt i keep walking,(slowly..) den out of nowhere, he grab my wrist n pull me backwards.. oh gosh, tats the 1st time ever, a guy done tat 2 me,(even though i gt a bf b4, shh..) lucky thing is i didt blush at all.. bt i broke my promise tat i'll write 2 him my email n stuff~
i'm reli reli truly sorrY.. even though i write here saying sry, he oso wont kno though.. unless sum1 tell him la.. zzz..

anyway, dun ever gt me wrg bout the bf thingi.. I'M NW SINGLE~!! oh gOsh, ppl owis think stupid things wen i say sumthing.. wat a freakish person r dey..

hmmm.. so its private stuff though, bt i wont ask hu have seen.. cause i wont kno.. jz 2 share.. haha~ YLDP was reli reli great.. i'll nvr 4get tis..
THANKS 2 THOSE HU ORGANISED TIS CAMP, I'LL NVR 4GET WAT I'VE LEARN...

God Bless those hu seen tis n hav a hapi holidays all~!!

BIG BIG MUACKS~~!!!!!!!

GALA NIGHT~!!!

2007-10-21T18:53:00.000+08:00

19 october 2007 --- i'll nvr forget tis day ever..
my skul, smk seksyen 4 bandar kinrara had a gala night..
well, it was reli fantistic, n many ppl lov de day for it is a reli wonderful night..
bt ther is still mus technical problems lar, which didt ever stop us frm having such a wonderful time 2gether..
well, tis is a reli memorial day bcause its sort of de last fun time v r going 2 meeting ur form5 frens n yea..
actually, in tis gala night ther juz 1 crapy thing tat make every1 laugh at.. its actually dayalan's singing n it sucks, u could bearly hear him sing.. n de worst part is, wen dey start de music onli, ppl start clapping, but wen he starts 2 sing..every1 was like "oh man, wat is he singing? does he even kno tat he is singing? he reli spoil de whole song man.."
bt oh well tat clapping n screamming juz last for 3min onli.. hA!! in ur face!!
wakakakaka....
btw, 2 me, ther is tis guy hu is form1 actually wink* at me, n i'm like ...oh no, wat the, did he jus wink?? i jus dono wats tat all about.. i'm jus frens wif him, v ply maple, n tats de onli commen thing v haf, u see... haizz...
n summore.. ther is tis other guy, he is very 'yeng' on tat day, n summore he was performing n fasion show oso.. i was like ...wat the..... he's cool, n its like... argh... dono how 2 say, erm, as in for galz i thnk v'll kno la.. bt if boys dono i'll forgiv u hahaha~~
btw, its reli a beautiful night n i reli loved it, ALOT..
hahas~~ its as if v have nt feel tis kind of feeling for a long time b4..
n nw i'm glad tat v had feel tat kind of feeling...

nw, SPM is coming very very soon~!! so remember 2 study, dun onli study hard bt oso study smart.. kays ?? so may God bless every1 hu see tis, kays..
nw GOD BLESS N HAV A WONDERFUL DAY YA~!!!

tis is my destiny rite..??

2007-10-11T11:42:00.000+08:00

why? why does tis owis hav 2 happen 2 me??
WHY??
wat hav i done wrong??????
ARGH~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
y is it owis the thing i reli like hav 2 b taken away..
my heart hav been broken into pieces for so many timeS..
AGAIN n AGAIN~~!!!
i cant stand tis anymore..
oh GOD~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
help me..plz.. Y???????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

song~~~

2007-08-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

How many times have I broken Your heart,
But still u forgive me, if only I ask,
Oh, how many times have You heard me pray,
Draw near to me..

Everthing I need, is You,
My beginning, My forever,
Everything I need, is You.

~~~

Crucified, laid behind the stone
You live to die rejected and alone,
like a rose trampled on the ground,
You took the fall, and thought of me,
above all.

~~~

I'm pressed but not crushed,
Persecuted not abandoned,
Struck down but not destroyed,
I am blessed beyond the cursed,
For His promise will endure,
For his soul will be my STRENGTH,

Though the sorrow may last for the night,
His joy comes in the morning..

~~~

Its ALL about Jesus,
Its ALL about the way He change ourlives,
Its ALL about Jesus,
The power of His love cant be denied,

Its ALL about Jesus,
Its ALL about the covenant He made,
Its ALL about Jesus,
Victorious He Rose up from the grave.

~~~~~~

```cherrie
God bless every1..!!

melody---

2007-08-12T17:36:00.000+08:00

silents.. try linstening 2 the melody.. try hearing wut melody is tat.. is there any meaning in it..
silents.. silents... silents....

its gud 2 b in a peaceful place, u can always experince the real silents..
.....................

melodies~~~~ its always so beautiful...

cottage meeeeeeeeeetttting...

2007-07-29T19:27:00.000+08:00

WA........!!!!!!!! didt kno 2day sooo.... FUN...!!!!! haha.. all so "like tat"... lol..
n too bad esther didt come... haha..
1st v hav Dante's "game", den worship.. den BIBLE QUIZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha.. its actually like fear factor la.. bt tis 1 is already outdated dy 1.. haha..
Jarod n Angel is the 1 hu prepared de game ma.. so.. wat 2 do...
Bible quiz, v got two groups,

if v answer wrong then hav 2 take a card 2 "show" our luck..
if v r not lucky, den hav 2 drink some kind of "juice"... ewww...
but the taste is juz cili.. n slimy slimy stuff.. haha..
den, after tat v kena balik both of dem... wakaka..
i mix alot of stuff inside..

"its our secret recipe.." muahahahahhahahhaha!!!!!

den wen dey drink tat time, v say all the "secret ingrediets"..

wakakaka.. should look their faces..!!! haha..

after the groust part, den v hav the JULY burfday babies..

n v sing burfday songs 2 dem.. hapi burfday~~~

actually ther should b three person, bt pastorpher didt com..

eww man!!! so after praying 4 the july babies,

me n melissa SABO DEM!!!!!!!!!!!!

wakakakakakakakakakakakakkakakakakakkaaa.......!!!!!!!!

den.. v makan lor.. ply comp lor..

haiiyo, dey all reli.. comp comp comp comp comp..

TERUKNYA.....

bt nvrmd la..

n i reli hav 2 great day.. no its a perfect n memorieble day..

thx every1..

n by the way.. wat do u think about my house??

plz leave a comment, if u like la...

the day...

2007-07-26T21:02:00.000+08:00

the day reli reli FREAKS me OUT!!!!!
i hav to run on the basket ball court for 15 rounds, under the HOT SUN!!!!!
WITHOUT MY BAJU PJ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

argh!!!!! bt lucky no boys are around, cause dey cant pj... wahahahha...
n summore the form 1, 2 and 4 gt exam.. haha.. lucky us... wohoo... keke..

still cant reli deal wif most of my classmates.. n oso i'll describe dey in two words..
"DEY SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
seriously.. dey are reli reli annoying, even teacher scream or shout at dem, dey still wont listen..

there are many group in my class...

noisy group..
laughing group..
figthing group..
ponteng group..
"dai lou" group..
fasion group..
sleeping group..
lazy group..
"fat hao" group..
singing group..
the annoying group..

and alot la... and the worst thing is.. our class is the most famous n terrible class of the whole skul.. argh..!! so so annoying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ish.. n so.. i reli hav a nice nap.. for duno how many hours.. till around 8.. then... like tat lorh...

my day ends jus like tat... hmm..

anyways, may God bless those who read tis larh..

`````cherrie

P n S-C

2007-07-24T18:36:00.000+08:00

Patients and Self-control..

These are the things I'm lack of in me. Over many years of self-discipline, prayers and guidance. I've manage to be patient and self-control. But sometimes I'll just let my emotions control myself. Then, I told myself 'I must try harder to be patient and self-control. After that, ever since I've meet him, it was as if God is giving me an example of how to be patient and self-control. Till then i learned. And now, because of some really really bull-shit thing, my patients and self-control have gone over the limit of limit!!! and that all I need is Faith and Strength.

Faith And Strength..

because of the over flowing patient and self-control that I have, ALL my FAITH AND STRENGTH is as if have been blowned away and have already fall and fall and fall and fall..... to the deep deep deep Deepest lowest point of my enthier LIFE and everything, absolutely everything are being counted as a FAIL success!!!!!

Oh Father in Heaven, Almight God, You, only You can strengthen my Faith and give me the Strength to stand up and be firm in You, grant me Wisdom too, Oh Father.. I pray this in Jesus most precious name.. AMEN. (so be it..)

-cherrie-